Mail Order Bride (Part 3/3)

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Author: Rini myficjournal and Saklani saklani2
Title: Mail-Order Bride
Pairings: Jared/Jensen
Series: SPN RPS AU
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 22,312
Summary: Jared is a forest warden, who lives far from civilization, to escape from the sorrow of his past. He orders a bride and gets a Jensen instead. Lucky Jared.
Disclaimer: We do not own the boys. Alas.
Posting: Please ask, but I am sure we will say yes.
Author's Notes: We wrote this fic for the 2010 Christmas season, but were a little late in finishing. So, here we are, posting it a year late, but we hope you enjoy it anyway.

Part One
Part Two



Jared bounced out of his bed early on Christmas morning and shiver-bounced his way to the fireplace to put on logs and warm the living room. Cackling, he raced to Jensen's room, threw open the door and flopped on his bed. "Christmas! Wakey-wakey sleepyhead!"

Jensen moaned at Jared's sneak attack, burrowing under his covers to stay in the warmth. It was getting chillier and chillier every morning. "Sleepin'," he croaked.

Jared laughed and curled around the huddled mass under the covers. "Jen," he crooned. "It's Christmas morning. There are presents under the tree, a fire in the hearth and a special breakfast waiting to be made."

"It's cold," Jensen moaned, sticking his nose out of the covers and blinking blearily at Jared.

Jared darted forward and kissed Jensen's nose and forehead. "Good morning, love," he said. "It is cold. But it's warm in the living room. And the kitchen will warm up, too."

Jensen lifted his mouth for a real kiss, pouting slightly at Jared until he got what he wanted.

Jared laughed fondly at the expression and kissed Jensen, tangling their tongues in an affectionate twist. "Come on, Jen. Please."

Humming, Jensen stretched under the covers and then reached up to wrap Jared in his arms and tug him to the bed. He chuckled out loud and rolled until he was half on top of Jared and could kiss him as he wanted to. When Jensen finally pulled back with a quiet little moan, he beamed at Jared. "Now I'm awake."

Jared laughed and cradled Jensen in his arms. "Well, I can handle waking you up that way every morning, if needed." He stroked over his back, face going serious as he contemplated the man who already meant the world to him.

"I like the sound of that," Jensen agreed, kissing Jared one more time before pulling back and sitting back on his heels on the bed. "So breakfast and presents? Or presents and breakfast?"

Jared whined a little as Jensen moved away, but sat up with a grin. "Breakfast and presents! Together. Double our pleasure." He beamed at Jensen and slithered off the bed.

Jensen bit back a moan at the way Jared moved so sensually without even knowing it. He adjusted himself quickly and then stood on the cold floor, almost dancing from foot to foot. "Need my slippers and then we can make breakfast together."

Jared showed off his Christmas-themed slipper socks and winked at Jensen. "Meet you in the kitchen!" He zoomed off.

Laughing, Jensen went and grabbed his own pair of slippers and raced after Jared, skidding into the kitchen not far behind him. He reached for the fridge and started to gather stuff to make their breakfast with.

Jared started cutting fruit for their fritters. "Banana, apple and peach slices coming up. You got the batter mixing?"

"Of course," Jensen said, first sifting together all of the dry ingredients and then moving on to mixing up the wet ingredients. He loved the way they worked well together, whether in the kitchen or out on the trails.

"This is gonna rock your world, Jen," Jared promised, moving the fruit over near the batter and starting up the pan to fry them. "So yummy."

Jensen slowly added the dry ingredient to the wet, stirring everything together to make sure the batter wasn't lumpy. He turned to watch Jared work while he waited for the pan to be hot enough for them to start frying the fritters up.

"Ready?" Jared dumped some of the fruit into the batter and then scooped them on to the pan. He watched them cook for a moment, before turning them over. "Want to get out plates and the powdered sugar?"

"Sure," Jensen said, stroking his hand down Jared's back before going to the pantry to get the powdered sugar and then rummaging in the cabinets for the plates, silverware and mugs for the coffee that Jared had already started brewing for them.

Jared shivered pleasurably and threw a blinding smile at Jensen. "They smell awesome." He scooped the finished ones on to a serving dish and said, "You start."

Jensen grinned and took a couple for his plate and put a couple on Jared's too. He sprinkled all of them with the powdered sugar and waved lightly over them. Neither of them needed to get burned on the hot batter.

Jared fried up some more and then dropped them on the serving plate, before removing the pan from the heat. "Want to go eat by the fire?"

"Of course," Jensen agreed easily, dusting the remaining fritters with the powdered sugar before he started to pour them both huge mugs of coffee. "If you grab the food, I'll bring the caffeine."

"Can't deal without the caffeine," Jared confirmed, pressing a quick kiss to Jensen's mouth, before grabbing all the various plates and hauling them into the living room.

Jensen hummed softly to himself, watching Jared go before he made up their coffees and then followed him into the living room. He put the mugs down and then went to light the Christmas tree and open the drapes so they could see out into the wintery wonderland outside. Curling up on the couch next to Jared, Jensen grabbed a plate and sat back, placing his cup on the end table and digging into his fritters.

Jared dug into his own food, moaning at the rich flavor. "Damn, these are good. Always loved it when my momma made them for the holidays."

"It's a great tradition," Jensen agreed. "Our family usually had pancakes and cream of wheat."

"We can do that tomorrow, if you like," Jared said, leaning against Jensen with a happy sigh.

Jensen nodded, finished off his fritters and put the plate aside. He grabbed his coffee in one hand and dropped his other on top of Jared's head to tangle in his hair while he stroked slowly over the strands. "I'd like that, I think."

Jared barely refrained from purring like a big cat and asked, "Want anymore?"

"Not just yet," Jensen said, enjoying the fact that Jared was so tactile. "We should probably open our presents next."

"Before finishing breakfast?" Jared asked, gobsmacked.

Jensen laughed. "I thought maybe you were done since you ate all your fritters."

"That was only round one!" Jared said, still scandalized. "I have a whole 'nother serving plate full!"

Snorting with his laughter, Jensen tugged lightly at Jared's hair. He leaned down and pressed a kiss to his lips once he'd stopped snickering. "All right then, have another plate of your fritters before we open the gifts."

Jared pulled Jensen into another kiss, even so saying, "You mock my eating habits! I'm a growing boy!"

"Growing boy," Jensen snorted, smiling at Jared indulgently. "Not sure I can handle you if you get much bigger."

"But it would be fun to try?" Jared asked, all innocence. He grinned and scrambled to his feet to get more fritters. "Sure you don't want more?"

Jensen snorted in laughter and shook his head. "Nah, I'm full for now. I'll get more coffee, though," he said and climbed up off the couch to take his plate to the sink and top off the coffee.

"You could live on coffee," Jared said with a grin. He filled his plate again and returned to the sofa. "Or just raw caffeine."

"Hmmmm, raw caffeine would be nice. IV right into the blood stream," Jensen chuckled, settling on the couch with Jared again.

"Something to get you next Christmas," Jared said, stuffing himself with more fritters.

Jensen's heart skipped a beat. He wanted to hope that Jared really and truly meant that. "Hmmmm, it'll keep me much more awake."

"And as cute as you look asleep," Jared said, "you're even better awake." He leaned in for a powdered sugar kiss.

Humming, Jensen returned the kiss, being careful to keep the coffee out of the way. He licked his lips after, grinning. "Hmmm, sweet."

"Never have too much sugar," Jared said and made a face at Jensen's black coffee. "Are you ready for presents?" He looked at the gaily-wrapped boxes under the tree.

"Absolutely," Jensen said, sipping at his coffee with a happy smile. He nudged Jared's leg. "Why don't you open that little white one with the green trees on it first?"

Jared grinned and practically bounced off the sofa to pick it up, grabbing a medium-sized one for Jensen. He rattled his like a little kid and grinned when it squeaked. "You got me a rubber mouse!" he guessed.

Jensen snorted. "Yes, I absolutely got you a rubber mouse." He shook his head and took the package from Jared, undoing the wrapping paper slowly and carefully.

Jared laughed and tore open the package with even great enthusiasm than usual. "It's a Zainies Holiday Greenies squeaker dog toy!" he said with joy. "Two of them. Aw, Jen, you got our babies toys!" Heedless of anything else, he tackled Jen for a kiss.

Squeaking when Jared attacked him, Jensen let his own gift thump to the floor. He wrapped himself around Jared and kissed him soundly. "Thought you might like a gift for them too."

"You are the best dog father ever," Jared proclaimed, nuzzling Jensen's face. "Oh, sorry. Made you drop your gift."

Jensen grinned, blushing and holding Jared tight. "That's okay...I'll always take surprise kisses from you." He kissed Jared again and then straightened them both up so he could finish opening his present. When he saw the gourmet coffee, he almost whimpered. "Jay...this is...wow, thank you."

"Are those good blends? The reviews said they were good blends, but I've never really paid a lot of attention to coffee before, cause I always just toss in a ton of cream and sugar."

"Yeah, these are amazing, Jay. I've only had them like once before...at someone's house." Jensen smiled at Jared, knowing his emotions were in his eyes, but unable to help himself. He was slowly falling deeper and deeper in love with the man before him.

Jared answered the smile instantly, glad to have made Jensen happy. "I'm so glad. I wanted to make sure I got you good things. You deserve them."

"Thank you," Jensen said. "You have been amazing, especially since I’m not who you were expecting."

"Well, I’m not sure what I was expecting," Jared admitted with a little smile. "Just not a man. But it doesn't matter, not since I've gotten to know you."

Jensen smiled shyly. "I'm glad. You were more than I was hoping for when I came out here."

"I am?" Jared asked and dipped his head with a blush. "I want to make you happy. You deserve to be happy." He shook himself and asked, "Did I see a gift from your sister?"

Jensen allowed himself to be distracted for a moment. "Yeah, Mack's gift showed up a few days ago."

"Open it next," Jared said with a grin. "I want to see what she gave you."

Jensen got up and grabbed the present he had from Mackenzie and another, smaller one that she had sent to Jared. He moved back to his seat and then handed Jared the small box. "She sent you one too," he said, smiling and starting to open his own little package.

"Me?" Jared asked, shocked and delighted. "Oh, should I open it? Can I? May I?"

"Of course," Jensen said with a chuckle. "She wanted you to have it."

"Yeah." Jared opened this present carefully, not wanting to chance harming whatever Jensen's sister had sent him. "Someday, you'll have to have her come visit," he said absently.

Jensen sucked in a breath. "I'd love for her to do that...someday."

"Good. A real family gathering," Jared said and then gasped at the picture enclosed. "It's you and your sister? I mean, this has to be your sister. You look so cute together."

Leaning over, Jensen chuckled. "Yeah, that was right before she left for school...a couple of years ago now." He didn't mention it was the last time he'd actually seen her in person. Jensen sat back and carefully opened his own gift, smiling at the wooden box with the note inside that his sister had made it in a shop class she'd had to take.

"We'll find a good place for the picture," Jared promised and set it carefully aside to watch Jensen open his own present. "What is it?"

"It's meant to be a spice box," Jensen said, turning it so Jared could see the smaller compartments inside the wood.

"That's really well made," Jared said and leaned closer to examine the box. "We'll get special spices to put inside."

Jensen smiled with pleasure at Jared's compliment of his sister's handiwork. "That'd be nice. Maybe all the spices we'd need for a specific or something."

"We'll find something," Jared promised and stroked Jensen's cheek, pulling him in for another kiss.

Jensen hummed into the kiss, eyes slipping shut. He leaned forward slightly, hand gripping Jared's leg to keep himself balanced.

Jared tugged on Jensen's lower lip as he broke the kiss. "I think there are still a couple of presents each under the tree." He thumbed Jensen's mouth before forcing himself to move and grab two more packages.

Chuckling, Jensen took a deep breath and forced himself to sit back on the couch. He adjusted himself when Jared's back was turned and then watched him walk back to the couch. "Open mine first?" he asked.

Jared grinned happily and set his gift for Jensen on his knees, before flopping on the couch again. He examined his gift from all sides, before ripping it open and then carefully extracting a long, soft, warm scarf in vibrant blue. He grinned and rubbed his face in the garment, before wrapping it around his neck and sighing. "This is so snuggly. Thank you! I always need to keep warm and this will remind me of you while I do."

"I was hoping you liked it and would need it," Jensen said with a grin. The fluffy material snuggled around Jared so appealingly. "It just seemed like it would suit you."

"It does, perfectly," Jared said, playing with the scarf happily. "Just have to make sure the dogs don't get at it. They think things like this are for chewing on."

Jensen chuckled. "We'll make sure it sits up nice and high, then." He carefully opened his next gift from Jared, pulling out thick gloves that fit perfectly when he pulled them on. They were lined with a soft, fleece like material and yet were supple enough that he could move his hands easily. "They're gorgeous, thank you."

"And perfect for outdoor work in the cold," Jared said, taking Jensen's gloved hands in his bare ones and rubbing over them. "Don't want anything to happen to your hands."

"Me either...I mean," Jensen chuckled, his whole body warming from Jared's easy touch. "They'll be a real benefit when I'm out helping you."

"And other things," Jared said, face coloring slightly. "I have one more for you." He slid off the couch and fetched the last two presents. He handed his to Jensen, a smallish sized box, wrapped in bright Santa paper.

Jensen smiled, cradling the smallish package in his hands. "Open mine first again?" he asked, ducking his head. He loved watching Jared open his presents and didn't want to be distracted by the process of opening his own.

Jensen's shyness warmed Jared from the inside, and he nodded eagerly. "Yeah, that works." He opened his package and pulling out a small disc. Blinking a few times, he carefully read the label, face breaking out into another huge smile. "It's you," he said. "Singing."

"You seemed to enjoy my singing the Christmas carols, so I thought you might like to have something that was a bit different," Jensen offered with another shy smile. He felt relieved with the way Jared was looking at him, but he wasn't entirely certain that Jared really liked the gift.

"I love listening to you sing," Jared confessed. "You have such a good voice, Jen. And now, I can take you with me when I go patrolling and stuff." He pressed his forehead to Jensen's. "Open yours now. Please."

Jensen nodded, pressing a quick kiss to Jared's lips first. He sat back and opened this final gift even more carefully than any of the others. When he saw the jeweler's box inside, his heart raced and Jensen had to caution himself against hoping for anything in particular. Jensen opened the box and gasped slightly, staring at the gorgeous multi-metal Celtic designed ring nestled inside.

Jared dropped to one knee by the side of the couch and put a hand on Jensen's right knee. "Jensen Ackles, you make my life full, and I wish with all my heart to know if you will marry me."

Gasping, Jensen tore his gaze from the ring to where Jared knelt beside him. He opened and closed his mouth several times before nodding wildly. Jensen wasn't able to trust his voice, so he leaned down and pulled Jared into a heated kiss.

Heart swollen with joy, Jared kissed back, cradling Jensen's head in one of his hands and pouring out his love into the joining of their mouths. He separated only so he could gently take the ring and slide it on to Jensen's ring finger. "This was my grandfather's. I know he would be proud to have you wear it now." He kissed Jensen's knuckles lightly.

"Jay," Jensen breathed, curling his fingers tighter around Jared's hand. "Are you certain?" he couldn't help asking, knowing that he wanted to be married to Jared more than anything.

"Almost as soon as I got to know you," Jared confessed. "You weren't who I expected, but you are who I need, who I want and who I love."

Jensen brought both hands to Jared's face and pulled him into a deep kiss. He'd hoped, especially with Jared's growing interest in their physical compatibility, but Jensen hadn't dared let himself dream that Jared was falling in love with him. "I started falling in love with you from the moment you had me drive the sled back to the house on that first day."

Jared flushed with pleased embarrassment. "Really? I thought I was such a doofus that day. I hardly knew how to act, what to do. But I liked you from the first." He kissed Jensen sweetly. "I'll call and arrange a little ceremony for us, shall I? We can get a ride into town and have a real wedding. And I'll write the company and let them know how happy I am with you."

"I would love that, Jay," Jensen said, pulling Jared back up onto the couch and keeping a tight hold on him. The only thing that would make it even more wonderful for Jensen was if Mackenzie could be with them, but he knew that was a far-fetched idea...and he could only hope she might come visit them once her schooling was done. "We could do it before the end of January, perhaps?"

"A perfect way to ring in the New Year," Jared agreed and tugged Jensen into another kiss. "I love you, Jensen Ackles."

Jensen shivered. "I love you, Jared Padalecki," he murmured over Jared's lips.

"Want to go christen our new bed for Christmas?" Jared asked, eyes sparkling. "Then we can move all your stuff in with me... if you want."

"Are you certain?" Jensen asked again, body so ready to be with Jared's, but he was concerned about Jared changing his mind about his long held beliefs. He stroked his thumb over Jared's cheek to take some of the sting out of his words. "You want to do so before our wedding night?"

"I want to be with you forever, Jen. For all intents and purposes, we're married now. Just the formality remains." Jared kissed Jensen's nose and beamed. "And I want to fall asleep holding you in my arms. My life's been empty too long."

Jensen nodded, kissed Jared hard and then pulled back to look into his eyes. "I want the same, Jay. I just...I had to be certain." He tangled one hand in Jared's hair and kissed him with all of the pent up love and passion he felt. "Take me to our bed, then."

Still kissing, Jared scooted off the sofa and lifted Jensen in his arms with only a slight grunt. "See, you really are marrying a mountain man," he said, as he carried Jensen toward their room.

Laughing, Jensen held on tight. "Do not hurt yourself...I'm not exactly small, Jay."

"I know," Jared said, "but I want to do this. I've always wanted to do this." He beamed and hauled Jensen into his bedroom, the room that would from now on be theirs. With a little huff, he set Jensen on the bed and asked, "What do you think?"

"I think that was awfully romantic and a bit unnerving," Jensen admitted. He shook his head slightly and pulled Jared down to the bed.

Jared settled next to Jensen, stroking his hip lightly. "Hello. I wonder if all people who just got engaged feel as goofy and happy as I do."

Jensen chuckled, nodding his head. "I certainly hope they feel as goofy and happy as we do...isn't that what being in love and getting married is supposed to be all about?"

"If you're lucky," Jared said. "I never thought to be this lucky."

"Neither did I, truth be told," Jensen agreed, pressing kisses over Jared's face. "I hoped you'd be a good man, someone I could enjoy being around, but I'd never really thought we'd love each other."

Jared caught Jensen's mouth and rolled so they were entangled. He kissed them both breathless and then pulled Jensen's left hand to his mouth to kiss the knuckles and palm. "My ring looks right on your finger. Does it fit?"

Jensen nodded, curling his hand around Jared's. "Perfectly. We'll have to stop and get you one before the ceremony."

Jared smile and pressed his face into Jensen's collarbone, sighing happily. "You can choose one for me. Whatever you want."

"It's a deal," Jensen said, stroking his hand up and down Jared's back and tangling the other in his hair. "We have lifetime of making deals ahead of us."

"Let's make a deal!" Jared said enthusiastically and beamed at Jensen. He touched his shoulder gently. "You have experience with this?"

Jensen shook his head. "No, not really...but I want to try with you."

"What would you like to try?" Jared asked, kissing over Jensen's cheeks and sucking lightly on the first earlobe he came to.

"I want to try everything with you," Jensen said. "I want to experience it all."

"We're both going into this new," Jared said, caressing the perfect slope of his ass and squeezing the handfulls. "Want all of you."

Jensen blushed hotly, rocking his hips back into Jared's hands and moaning. "You can have all of me, Jay. Do you- do you want to be inside me?"

Jared's hips rocked forward without his consent, and he groaned deep in his throat at the idea. "Would you- would you like that? I don't want to do anything you might not like."

"Yes, I want to try everything, Jay...and the idea of being so intimately close to you," Jensen broke off the sentence, blushing and ducking his head into Jared's throat.

Jared thumbed over Jensen's hot cheeks, matching his blush. "Yes, that is what I wish, too. To look you in the eyes as we share such pleasure as may be found."

Jensen leaned into Jared's touch. "I want that," he said, rolling his hips up and pressing them against Jared's. "Touch me, please," he requested.

"Let me undress you," Jared whispered softly. "I want to kiss every piece of your body as it is revealed to me."

"Yes, please," Jensen moaned, arching up into Jared and trembling at the thought of Jared wanting to see him, to touch and kiss his body.

Jared carefully unbuttoned Jensen's shirt, rubbing his lips over the skin of his collarbone and throat. He nipped at his adam's apple and then sucked at the pulse in the tender curve under his jaw. "You make me want."

Jensen shuddered. "God, I've been wanting you for days, weeks now."

Jared smiled against Jensen's skin and peeled back his shirt enough to uncover the skin between his nipple and collarbone, kissing each inch tenderly. "That long," he breathed.

"Yeah, I knew I wanted to stay that first week and spending time with you just inflamed my feelings," Jensen admitted, bringing a hand up to curl in Jared's hair.

Jared kissed Jensen sweetly for the confession and smiled down at him. "I can't believe that I ever considered letting you leave me," he said. "You fit with me in every way."

Jensen chuckled, blushing again. "I'm glad, but I know you were caught off guard because you expected someone named Jenny."

Jared laughed, too, and pressed their hips together. "So glad you're not a Jenny now."

"Me too," Jensen moaned, arching up and taking Jared's mouth in a heated kiss.

Jared cradled Jensen close and sucked on Jensen's tongue until his head spun. His hips thrust lightly against Jensen, rubbing their cocks together through the material. "Want to get back to exploring."

Jensen tipped his head back on the bed and released Jared, keeping his hands only lightly stroking at Jared's hips so that Jared could move as he wanted.

Jared grinned, pressed a thank you kiss to Jensen's mouth and then went back to exploring his torso. He removed clothing slowly, worshipping every inch of Jensen and making his skin slick under his mouth. He nosed around his right nipple, before sucking it in his mouth with a moan.

Jerking up off the bed as Jared's lips sucked at his nipple, Jensen moaned loudly and rolled his head on the pillow. "Feels so good, Jay."

"Never done this before," Jared confessed, nuzzling the small bud gently. "Tastes good."

"You like the taste of my skin?" Jensen asked, closing his eyes.

"Yes," Jared breathed. "There's something almost sweet about it." He licked rapidly at the areola around Jensen's nipple, flashing darts of tongue.

Jensen chuckled. "Really?" he asked, intrigued that it could taste sweet.

"Mmm," Jared answered, kissing the space between nipples and then slicking over the other nipple. "Tasty."

Jensen blushed, lifted his head to look down at Jared and then dropped back to the bed. He could feel his body responding, the delicate touches on his nipples shooting straight to his cock and making it throb. "Feels good."

Jared made a soft noise of appreciation and opened the shirt further, sliding down Jensen's perfect abdomen. He nudged over the cut of his muscles and sucked at his bellybutton. "You're gorgeous, too."

"Thank you, I have a feeling your gym is going to help," Jensen said.

Jared found the first traces of hair that led to Jensen's groin and buried a moan in his skin. He tugged the first strands in his teeth. "Fuck, you're hot down here."

Jensen moaned, rolled his head on the pillow and lifted his hips slightly into Jared's face. "Fuck," he breathed.

Jared nuzzled over the hard denim separating him from Jensen and then gently pulled down the zipper. His nostrils filled with the scent of male arousal, flooding his mouth with saliva as he ducked down to mouth over the bulge pushing out Jensen's boxers.

"Jesus," Jensen breathed. "You sure you've never done this?" he asked, breath shaky. He stroked his hand over Jared's head and trembled underneath him.

Jared looked up at Jensen with a bright smile. "I'm doing all right then?" he asked, honestly curious. He rested his cheek against Jensen's cock and rubbed.

Jensen jerked in response to Jared stroking his cheek over Jensen's cock. "God yeah...any more right and you might kill me."

"That sounds bad to me," Jared said and eased Jensen out of the slit of his boxers, holding his cock reverently in one hand and stroking gently.

"Trust me...it's so not bad," Jensen groaned, rocking his hips up into Jared's touch.

"What should I do?" Jared asked, staring at Jensen with unabashed desire and love. He pressed a kiss to his abdomen.

Jensen chuckled harshly. "Anything that you want, Jay. God, your touch is amazing."

Jared ducked to kiss Jensen's stomach again, hiding a blush. He tentatively licked his way down Jensen's cock, stroking gently. "Tastes good."

"Yeah?" Jensen asked, curious. He'd always wondered what it'd be like to taste someone to be that intimately close.

Jared lifted his head and beamed at Jensen. "You don't know?"

Jensen shook his head. "No, never tried that," he admitted.

Jared blinked in surprise and then smiled at Jensen. "Me, either. I hope I do all right."

"I can't imagine you could do it wrong," Jensen said, stroking his fingers over Jared's cheek.

Jared turned into the gentle hand and kissed each finger. "I wanted it like this," he murmured. "Someone who understood."

Jensen smiled. "I would hope that everyone would understand, but I'm glad that I'm here with you and not anyone else."

Jared pressed up, running his hands over Jensen's exposed sides through his open shirt, and kissed him, chewing on his lower lip. "Yes. I can't understand why nobody snapped you up, but I'm so glad they didn't."

"Me too," Jensen said with another shy chuckle. "Will you undress me completely?"

Jared nibbled at Jensen's jawline and whispered, "If you want." He gently urged Jensen out of his shirt, tossing it to the floor. He revisited each piece of skin on Jensen's chest and kissed both nipples. "Like that?"

Jensen moaned, arching up. "Yeah, your hands feel so good on my skin, so warm where you touch me."

"It's like unwrapping the best Christmas gift ever," Jared teased, reaching down to finish Jensen's pants.

"You already have your presents. This will have to be a present for the both of us," Jensen said, lifting his hips when Jared pulled the pants down his legs.

Jared got Jensen's socks and pants snarled up and finally flung them in the corner with a little growl. He turned back to the almost naked man spread before him and moaned in embarrassing fashion at the riches before him.

Jensen rested one hand on his stomach and the other up by his head on his pillow. He stared at Jared, still trying to imagine what he looks like underneath. "Will you undress for me now?"

Jared shook his head and said, "I want you to undress me. Please, Jen."

"Yeah," Jensen moaned, pushing himself upright. He rolled onto his knees and crawled forward toward Jared. "Come closer?" he asked, reaching his hands out to his future husband.

Jared moved to kneel right in front of Jensen, breathing hard in arousal. He cupped himself through his pants with a little gasp. "So hard for you."

"Good, I'm just as hard for you," Jensen said, reaching out and dragging Jared's hand to his body. He curled Jared's open palm around his hard length before starting to pull Jared's shirt up and over his head. Jensen tossed it aside and stroked Jared's chest with a moan. "So hard, so amazing," he murmured, leaning in and pressing a kiss over Jared's heart.

Jared held on to Jensen's cock thoughtlessly, even as he arched into the soft kiss. He looked down to watch Jensen, groaning softly as he was disrobed. "Love you."

Jensen hummed, kissed Jared's chest again and then surged up to kiss his lips. "Love you, too," he said, pulling back with a smile and then reaching down to get Jared out of his pants as fast as possible.

Jared kicked off his pants and tugged Jensen against him, so they rubbed bare skin together. "Jen. So good."

"Yeah," Jensen agreed, tugging on Jared's hips so he was even closer before dragging one hand over Jared's back and tracing the line of his spine.

Shivering, Jared clasped Jensen just above his ass and settled their hips together. He still wore his boxers, and there was something almost indecent about rubbing against Jensen's bare body while still partly clothed. "Jen."

"What do you want, Jay?" Jensen asked, dragging his nails back down Jared's spine and grabbing his ass with both hands to press them together.

"Everything," Jared said and traced the seam between Jensen's cheeks. "I want to be with you."

"You keep saying my name...what am I not doing? Why have you stopped?" Jensen asked, having expected Jared to pick right back up where they left off.

"Hmm? Sorry." Jared blushed and ducked his head into Jensen's shoulder. "I keep getting distracted by you. How you feel in my arms. How you look there."

Jensen blushed, the response not being what he'd expected. "Is it too much? Too fast?"

"No. No," Jared said, easing Jensen back down to the bed. "It's perfect. I just want to savor its perfection."

"Oh," Jensen whispered with another shy blush. He leaned in and kissed Jared softly, still gripping Jared's ass in his hands and rocking their hips together.

"I do want to suck you," Jared said, groaning as they rubbed together. He sat up and pressed Jensen back. "Please."

Jensen nodded, letting go of Jared and toppling onto his back on the bed. He grinned, spread his legs so Jared could climb between them and then propped himself up on his elbows. "And I want to watch you."

Jared groaned at the idea and humped a little against the mattress. Breathing out hard, he gripped Jensen's cock carefully around the base and then lowered his head to lick the tip. Slowly, he eased the head into his mouth, getting used to the feel and taste on his tongue.

Moaning, Jensen closed his eyes on a wave of pleasure and then forced them open again. It was amazingly, unbelievably erotic to see Jared's mouth opened around his cock and to feel the heat and wetness of his mouth at the same time.

Jared's eyes fluttered shut as he worked up and down the head of Jensen's cock. He stroked with his hand to make up for what he was not capable of taking in his mouth yet.

Jensen shifted his weight so he could reach out and tangle a hand in Jared's hair. He lightly played with the strands, hissing softly and moaning when Jared flicked his tongue just right under the head.

Jared groaned when Jensen's hand threaded into his hair. As Jensen reacted to his actions, he repeated those that seemed to cause the most pleasure and dared to slide even more into his mouth. He swallowed hard against his gag reflex and accidentally dragged his teeth over the length.

"Oh fuck, Jay," Jensen moaned, shaking and stuttering in Jared's grip. He dropped his head back and tightened his grip in Jared's hair, trying not to come.

One stutter poked Jensen in deep, and Jared gasped a little and coughed. He pulled off for a second to get his bearings and then dove back down, not wanting to stop pleasuring Jensen. Closing his lips tight, he sucked hard and long.

Jensen was unable to control himself, not with the way Jared attacked him with such enthusiasm. He shuddered, cried out and came in Jared's mouth before he could call out a warning.

Jared spluttered and choked on Jensen's release, before swallowing it down. He pulled off with a gasp, the rest hitting him in the face and spilling down his throat and on to the bed. "Wow."

"Jesus, sorry, Jay," Jensen gasped, trying to push himself up and wipe of Jared's face. His cheeks flamed with embarrassment at not being able to control himself and making a mess out of Jared.

Jared caught Jensen's hand and pulled him into a kiss, sharing his flavor. He tugged until Jensen nearly straddled him, a hand still gently fondling Jensen's spent cock.

Jensen trembled and shook in Jared's arms, sinking into the kiss and allowing Jared to ease his worries with his touch. He pulled back, rested his forehead on Jared's and sighed. "I'm sorry."

"Why are you apologizing?" Jared asked and stroked over Jensen's cheek and smiled at him. "It was amazing. Was I all right?"

"I didn't warn you," Jensen said, shamefaced. He leaned into Jared's hand and hugged him closer.

"Warn me...oh." Jared smiled and kissed at Jensen's face, trying to chase the shamed expression. "There's nothing to apologize for; it was a compliment." He stroked Jensen's right cheek and urged him into a deep kiss.

Jensen returned Jared's kiss, sinking against him and clinging tightly. He pulled back. "I love you."

Jared lit up and kissed Jensen again, holding him close and trying to soothe with gentle caresses. "Love you, too. I'm glad I could make you feel good."

"It was amazing, Jay," Jensen said between kisses, doing his best to relax and feel good about it. "What do you want? Do you want to be inside me?"

Jared trembled again at the idea and nodded. "Yes, Jen. I want that intimacy with you. Not if it'll hurt you, though." His eyes darkened at the idea of injuring his lover.

Jensen smiled at Jared's care, kissing him again before laying down and beckoning Jared to him. "I know you'll be careful."

Jared carefully eased out of his boxers and spread himself over Jensen, gasping as his erection rubbed over Jensen's hot skin. "Want this to be perfect."

"It will be," Jensen said with complete faith.

"I, uh, I have something to use," Jared said, sitting up and fumbling in the stand next to his bed. "Did some research on what's best." He paused and looked at Jensen with bright eyes. "Do we need a condom?"

Jensen shook his head. "No," he whispered. "I don't."

Jared smiled and leaned in to kiss Jensen again. "Neither do I. We're each other's first times." He set the lubricant next to Jensen and stroked over his long legs, up his thighs to his ass, and then between.

Jensen looked over his shoulder at Jared, smiling shyly and arching his ass into Jared's hands. He ached for Jared to be inside him.

"I'm going to try to stretch you open now," Jared said, fumbling with the lube. "Please tell me if something hurts or feels wrong." He flipped open the top and nearly squirted the lube everywhere.

Jensen nodded. "Okay, I will." He turned forward again and rested his head on the pillow.

Jared took a deep breath and stroked his clean hand over Jensen's ass. He carefully parted the cheeks and made a low sound at the exposure of the small ring he was suppose to breach. "So tiny," he whispered, spreading lube over the pink with a trembling finger.

Shivering at the tender touch, Jensen breathed out and did his best to relax. He knew that he had to do that for Jared or this would end up hurting them both.

Jared rubbed Jensen's back with his clean hand, working to ease any tension there. He curled the very tip of his index finger into the edge of Jensen's hole and tugged lightly. "Not sure how to do this," he confessed.

"Jay," Jensen breathed out. "There's no way you're fitting in there without a lot of help. Can you just, maybe get your finger wet and try to push it in?"

"Yeah, Jen," Jared said and poured more lubricant over his finger. "Trying now." He swallowed and slid the finger to first knuckle deep inside.

Jensen shivered, his body resisting slightly at first before opening and taking Jared's finger inside. He wriggled slightly, feeling an unusual sort of pressure but not pain.

"All right?" Jared asked, watching Jensen move beneath him. He tugged at the edges and smiled to feel them loosen some. "I think it's working." 

"Yeah, feels okay...doesn't hurt," Jensen said, settling back against the bed.

Jared slid his finger deeper and rotated it around the edges. "You're so hot inside."

Jensen moaned, writhing against Jared's hand and the sudden onslaught of odd feelings. "Your finger feels huge."

Jared looked at his finger and then his erection, gulping a little. "Uh, it's pretty tiny, Jen," he murmured, sliding in as far as possible. "Oh fuck."

"Jay," Jensen moaned, body arching off the bed.

Jared leaned down and pressed soft, soothing kisses down Jensen's neck and back. "Jen. Jen, you're so perfect," he whispered. "So tight and hot around my finger. Want you so much."

Jensen relaxed under Jared's soft touches; the kisses almost drugging him. "I want you too, Jay. You want to try two?"

Jared nibbled Jensen's left ear and sucked on the lobe as he eased his single finger out. With only a bit of mess-making, he continued to soothe and kiss Jensen and slick up two fingers at the same time. Getting those fingers back into place left several trails of lube along Jensen's thighs, ass and balls. "Oops," he said with a chuckle, before finally getting them back into place.

Shivering at the slight chill from the lube, Jensen turned his head to try and get a look at Jared. He could see some of Jared's face and relaxed even more at the look in his eyes. "I'm ready, Jay."

Jared smiled sappily at him, eyes warm enough to melt butter, and eased the tips of both fingers inside. "Like that?" he asked, moving them in circles.

"God," Jensen moaned, dropping his head forward again. "Fuck that burns a little," he said, rolling his face back into the pillow and pushing himself back so that Jared's fingers breached him in one, fast movement.

Jared choked on a gasped cry and hooked his fingers instinctively, as if trying to anchor them tight. "Jen! Are you all right?"

Jensen moaned low, trembling violently when Jared raked over his prostate. "Oh fuck, Jay...god, do that again, please."

"What? What did I do?" Jared asked. He thought it over and then crooked his fingers again, hoping to repeat whatever pleasured Jensen so much.

"Fuck!" Jensen screamed. "Oh god, yes," he babbled.

So, that was good, and Jared worked hard to make sure that he continued to hit that spot inside Jensen, even as he spread his fingers and widened that narrow little passage to accommodate far more. "That's my Jen. So hot. So sensual. Fuck, can't wait to be inside you."

Groaning, Jensen all but thrashed on the bed while Jared played with his body. He rocked his hips back as best he could into Jared's hand. "God, yes, Jay...wanna feel you."

"I think another finger," Jared said. "I don't know that you're wide enough back here." He nearly swallowed his tongue when he suddenly concentrated on the sight of his fingers disappearing in and out of Jensen's body. "Fuck, so gorgeous." He leaned down and pressed a kiss to where his fingers moved inside, ignoring the flavor of lube.

Jensen moaned loudly again, pressing his ass into Jared's hand and face. "Please, Jay...more, anything."

Jared removed his fingers and kissed Jensen's slightly gaping hole and then spread lubricant on three fingers. "Here we go, Jen. Ready?"

"Yes, please...so ready, Jay," Jensen moaned, arched his back and turned to look at Jared over his shoulder with smoldering eyes.

Jared leaned forward and captured Jensen's perfect mouth, tightly bunching his fingers together and sliding them in deep. "Fuck, feel you open for me. So wide."

Jensen buried himself in the kiss, body responding and opening to Jared's fingers instinctively.

Jared licked into Jensen's mouth again, humming softly as their tongues twisted together. He pressed in deep with both tongue and fingers, searching for the spot inside him that would change all pain to pleasure. 

Jared's fingers raked over Jensen's prostate, and he broke from the kiss, crying out and writhing. "Now," he all but screamed at Jared, wanting and needing Jared to get inside his body before he came again.

Surprised, Jared fought the instinct to pull back at the cry. He forced himself to act calmly and removed his fingers from Jensen's body. "On your back?" he asked, wondering if that was the correct way.

Jensen moaned at the way Jared slid his fingers out, body almost ridiculously oversensitive. "Yeah," he finally breathed, heaving himself over and onto his back before reaching his arms out to bring Jared in close. "Please...need you."

Answering Jensen's need, Jared slotted into his arms and kissed his swollen lips. He awkwardly reached down to carefully slick himself with the remaining lube on his hands and groaned as his hips bucked into the touch. Letting go before he came prematurely, he whispered love into Jensen's ear, as his hips lined themselves up instinctively, helping to guide him inside.

Breaking the kiss, Jensen stared into Jared's eyes. "Love you," he whispered, dragging his hands down Jared's body until he could grab his own legs and pull them up and wider open so Jared could press inside more easily.

"Fuck," Jared hissed as he breached Jensen for the first time. He shuddered and stared into Jensen's eyes, his own hazy with love, lust and overwhelming need. "Is that- does that-"

"It's good," Jensen said, nodding at Jared and arching his neck back at the way Jared pushed just inside his body.

Dropping his head to mouth Jensen's fine neck, Jared inched his way forward, fighting both the resistance of Jensen's body and his own urge to slam himself inside. He bit down on the warm skin beneath his mouth, distracting himself with the taste of Jensen on his tongue.

Jensen groaned, hips hitching up out of his control and forcing Jared in deeper. He clawed at Jared's back, head lolling to the side while he panted.

Jared echoed Jensen and froze as Jensen raked his skin. "Shhh," he murmured in an attempt to soothe them both. He ached with the desire to claim Jensen and rubbed his head against him like a cat.

Forcing himself to take a few deep breaths, Jensen help tight to Jared and concentrated on relaxing. He opened his eyes again, surprised to find they'd shut while Jared pressed inside him.

"Feels good, Jen," Jared crooned. "So close to you now, so deep. Fuck." He paused again as Jensen's body resisted. "Not much more."

"C'mon, Jay...go ahead...I can take it, promise," Jensen murmured, lifting his head up to kiss Jared deep and encourage him on.

Jared exhaled a deep breath and then pressed in as swiftly as he dared, gasping when Jensen's body gave and swallowed the rest of him. He bit down hard on Jensen's right shoulder and held.

"Fuuuuuck," Jensen moaned, arching up against Jared. He wrapped himself around his lover and closed his eyes, still panting and trying to breathe through the sudden, complete intrusion.

Jared released Jensen's shoulder and pulled up enough to smile down into his face. "Did it, Jen. We're together. It is all right? I want it to be good for you."

Jensen nodded, smiling at Jared and then kissing him gently. "Yeah, you're huge, though," he said with a soft laugh that made him groan when his body clenched around Jared.

Jared gasped as Jensen squeezed him and then managed a weak laugh. "Huge... yeah. Sorry bout that." He rotated his hips to accustom Jensen a little to the feel of him moving inside. "You're hot and tight."

Chuckling again, Jensen slid his hands up to cup Jared's face and kissed him slow and sweet. "I like the way you feel inside me, Jay. You can move if you want."

"I want. So much." Jared's right hand found Jensen's left and clasped their fingers together as he made his first real slide in and out. His eyes fluttered closed as he slid gentle and slow through the warmth of Jensen's body.

"So good, Jay," Jensen moaned, the burn slowly starting to ease.

"More," Jared murmured, body striving for a pace to satisfy them both. His powerful muscles rippled with each thrust, moving the bed under them.

Jensen moaned, the burn swiftly fading to pleasure when Jared angled his hips and hit Jensen's prostate again. He clenched tight around his lover, wrapping himself even tighter and moaning loudly.

"Oh yes," Jared breathed, hitting the rhythm and power that worked for them both. He read every tell from Jensen's body, finding just how to angle in to maximize their shared pleasure. "Look at me," he ordered hoarsely. "Come on, Jen."

Forcing his eyes open, Jensen stared up at Jared. He held his lover close, rocking his hips into each thrust now and moaning almost continuously with the building pleasure.

Jared's heart warmed at the sight of the love, trust and pleasure in Jensen's intense gaze. He only hoped his own showed all the same with equal intensity back to Jensen. He knew he felt the same burning through his veins. The physical pleasure of each stroke inside his lover only stoked that fire higher and made it burn hotter.

"Feels so good, Jay," Jensen moaned, keeping his eyes open as best he could under the intense pleasure. He thrust his hips up and into Jared's hard, matching him for each movement. He ached to come again, the near constant rubbing at his prostate leaving Jensen nearly unable to think of anything else.

"'M close, Jen," Jared groaned, sweat trickling down his body as he worked them both hard. "Want to come in you, fill you so full of me."

"Yes, god yes, please," Jensen moaned, reaching down and stroking his cock. He wanted them to come together this time.

"So pretty, Jen," Jared growled, sucking on his lower lip. "Make yourself come for me. Show me what you look like when you come with my cock in you." He nearly blushed at his own language, which came from some deep, untapped part of him.

Jensen moaned hotly, hand stroking his cock furiously at Jared's words. He tipped his head back on the pillow, trembling from the dual sensations. "Please, Jay....wanna feel you come inside me, please," he moaned when his body arched hard, stiffening with his release pumping over his hand and between their bodies.

Jared grunted deep in his chest as Jensen's body tightened around his cock on a deep thrust. His orgasm slammed out of him, knocking away his breath. Hips jittering uncontrollably, he emptied into Jensen until his release began to trickle out before he even finished.

"Oh god, Jay, so good," Jensen moaned, body still shaking and trembling against his lover's body. He hugged Jared close and tight, stroking his back.

Jared shuddered through the last of his orgasm and then a few aftershocks, before finally realizing down on top of Jensen. "Wow," he breathed, resting his cheek against Jensen's hair. He listened to them breathe in tandem for a few moments. "Is it always like that?"

Jensen snorted. "I certainly hope so."

Jared laughed softly at Jensen's response, holding him close so they both shook. Finally, he pulled back enough to kiss him. "Thank you."

"Thank you...for choosing me, for giving me, us, a chance." Jensen kissed him back and then shifted them so that they were facing each other on the bed.

Jared tugged Jensen against him, lazily kissing his cheeks, nose, eyelids and mouth. "Thank you for choosing me back," he said with a smile. "I think we're going to be happy."

Jensen chuckled, "Yeah, I think so, too, Jay." For the first time in a long time, Jensen had a home, a family and a life that was going to be okay.